DOES LOVE TELL THE TRUTH?

"I love you", a very nice word especially if it comes from the heart. All of the people around the world needs someone who could be with them forever. How I wonder why Love right seems to be senseless and these words don't necessarily comes from the heart. Does love nowadays still exist? Is love honest enough that we should give our trust to the one who tells us that they love us?...

Girls and boys and even the third sex needs someone to be with them in the rest of their lives. Someone who could give them the love they needed. For me LOVE is a sacred word because it gives someone a reason for him to live and conquer every challenges he would face. But love right now seems to be very unsensible. Some would use it to get money or to make every body believe they are angels. Nowadays the world love is full of lies. Are you wondering why I could say these ? It's beause...

Before I used to believe love holds the key of peace. I used to say that love really conquers all. But as i grow up, and had been experiencing pains because of Loving someone whom I thought was asomeone right for me, but I loosed the game of Love in the end. Before that to be healthy is to be loving. But this is turning me to an unhealthy person. It's killing my feelings inside and tears my heart apart. It's also the reason why SUCESS is because of love. It's the reason why now I'm trying my best not to love, because I'm afraid to loose again and falls on to a broken hearted girl.It was even the reason why I think my father and mother is soon to be divorsed. Because of my Father playing fire and he's telling lies not just to my mother but also to us, his kids. He is waisting money for the girl. This became the start why I don't ask him for money to buy some personal necesities. Because he shouts at me everytime I ask money. Now I don't even feel that I love my brother and father. I really think they are just worsening my complicated condition.Love also became the reason why I can't no longer be at the honor's list although I know I could do it. It's because I really feel unloved and abandoned. Even at school I always feel pity for myself and treat myself as a bestfriend.I feel that my schoolmates doesn't want me, although I've been trying to be nice to them. Even those people who I thought were my bestfriends but proved myself wrong in the end.

So based on my experiences do you believe that LOVE still exist. That love still conquers all. That LOVE holds the key to infinite sucess. That LOVE still tells the truth?For me, I think the pains are over and that love is full of lies.

DELETING SOMEONE IN YOUR LIFE

In life we meet many different people. We gain friends, crushes, or even more than that. Nowadays we often look for friends who are cute and good looking. Sometimes we often have qualifications on our crushes. Just like they should be cute, tall, handsome, they should be this, that and many more. But have you ever experienced, meeting someone, you became friends, then later on you had a crush on him or more than that. You thought things would just go right if you just stay as a good friend to him, but later on you had false expectations. Because he wasn’t that perfect as you thought he was. In my case I have already experienced that,

I don’t know if in my case you would also do the same as I did…
In the first day of classes here in UP. Of course I’m really off to meet new friends. The first guy introduced to me (of course I haven’t met before) was this ---------n student. At first I thought he was nice. Because in fact he was really cute and good looking. As days go by I discovered other good characteristics that he inherits. I discovered I was developing feelings for him. From then on I started to stay close to him, like greeting him every morning and keeping him as my close and special friend. But as I get to know him more and more, and going in to his personality deeper and deeper. I discovered my feelings to get stronger and stronger.

Few months later, there came the time when I discovered that he was like getting away from me, not like before. I became a bit worried maybe he was angry with me and I Have done something wrong. But as days gone by things even got worse. He doesn’t even smile when we meet each other on the corridor. But those even weren,t just the things that hunted me but also when I found out that he was falling for a ------------n. It was like tearing’ me apart. But what could I do? So I just let it get away with time. Because I can’t take hold of his feelings.

After the second semester. I got closed to this girl classmate of mine; she was a very beautiful lady. I don’t know how it happened but we became very close. During those times she was developing feelings for a guy, who was a friend of mine, and also a good friend of my crush. The very problem that hurted me a lot started when I started to become a bridge for this gal classmate of mine and her crush. At first things have just gone right. Until one day my gal classmate asked me to ask her crush if he was angry with her. But I haven’t met yet the guy so I asked another lady to do it for me. It was lunch time and all Upians are waiting at the gate for the bell to ring. I asked a girl to ask my friends crush. My friend’s crush said no, but my crush said something which really insulted me. It would just be okay fo me if he said those words that only the two of us would hear, but the sad thing is almost all the Upians heard what he had said!...

So from that day, It seems that we don't know eagh other, it's like we've never met each other before. If we cross each other in a narrow way, I always avoid him and go on with my way. He doesn't how much pain he has cause me by just saying those words. When someone asks me about him, I just simply say; "who was he I don't know him!"

SOUNDTRACK oF My LIFE

Songs, the real essence of music, something who captures the emotions of the heart and soul, a vocal music of life .Life, the way of living, the very reason of all the creations on the earth. Love, something that is felt between you and the opposite sex, something which binds the relation of everyone, the key of peace and unity. Tears, the real proof of existing emotions, brought about strong emotions on life and love. These four words have different meanings, but they are all related in the game of life. How? Why? I don't really know but maybe because of how these words are sequenced in the game of life. Just like when you hear a certain song you will remember some treasured memories and relate to the song about your life, and your love life, then, what's next, of course tears will fall because of the emotions brought about by the song and memories. Check on my list of songs, which most commonly relate on my life and love life.

"Welcome to my Life", by Simple Plan: This is more on like mellow rock. Just like the way I relate to this song, is because the song tells about especially teen ages that are often got into trouble. People whom are often scolded by their parents, and which his or her freedom was gotten away from him or her, because of some characteristics that he inherits just like being pasaway or somewhat like hard headed. From the very first line, "Do you ever feel like breaking down, do you ever feel out of place, like somehow you just don't belong and no one understands you" those lines were pointed especially on those who were deceived because of their characteristics stated above.

“Right Here Waiting for You” by Richard Marx, a rock ballad, which was commonly for lovers. The song tells me about a man and woman seriously in loved with each other .They are willing to conquer all the challenges life has to offer them. And if someone would be leaving they would be ready to wait and wait to be together again. I also relate to this song because of someone whom I loved, but he was a lot older than I am. But even though the situation is like this I will still wait for him. The lines in which really captivates me are “Wherever you go, whatever you do I will be right here waiting for you”, the lines would tell me that live, love and suffer but never learn to surrender.

“Iris”, by Ronan Keating: for me the song really affects as a person because of the song’s message. For me this song really tells me about those people who are who are often criticized and feels pity for themselves. This points out to the people who are not healthy socially. I really cry when hearing the lines from the song: “And I don’t want the world to see me because I don’t think that they would understand when everything seems to be broken. I just want you to know who I am”.
The song affects me because of some personal reasons.

In life we need music to light up our day when we feel lonely.
So for me songs are very important without them, I don’t know what will happened. ”So I say thank you for the music, for giving it to me”

"STRENGTH BEHIND THE TEARS"

Have you ever felt that the people around you are not accepting you as a part of their lives. I once knew an old classmate. She wished to have a perfect family, beautiful face, to reach the honors every grading period and to go away from the deception of others. She always feels unlucky and pity for herself. But even though she always feels deceived, she always keeps herself strong enough to face the criticisms and pains.

There once was a time that someone told her, "you're a fat lady, very ugly" but I was shocked, because instead of becoming angry she remained silent and face the window behind her chair. When I peeped at her face, I saw teardrops fell from her eyes and I heard her say, "Why should I cry, they only waste my tears.", then she started to wipe her tears. From that very sentence she said, I was touched and felt sympathy for her. So, I decided to go to her and tapped her shoulder, then went away.

For the next days, I just observed her. I greeted her "GOOD MORNING", when she comes to school. She just replies me with her cute smile. As days go by, I decided that i should be friends with her. Later on the day, I came close to her and asked her to be my friend. From the look in her eyes I felt that she was shocked and in confusions, like is this really happening or what. But I forced her then she agreed. From then on we started to go together, eat lunch together, and many other things usually done by friends.

From then on it seems that we are the only people in our own world. On the first day after Christmas break, I saw her crying in a corner .I came to her and asked her why she was crying'. She hugged me and told me she wanted to die, because no one loves her and understands her. I felt my tears shed from my eyes. I looked at her and all the pains she was suffering right now. I can't help my tears from falling. What could I do? Of course I asked her what the problem was. She told me that it was because of her father and other classmates. During Christmas she found out that her father was having a third party, or loving another woman aside from her mother. Her classmates and other friends think she was very weak and always trick her and criticize her .I told her that just stays strong for they can't rule your life. She thanked me and stopped crying.

During the next few days, a guy classmate of ours. Pushed her and stepped on her bag and told her she was the ugliest creature in the world and told her she was a looser. But for the first time no tear fell, but instead she stood up. You'll be surprised of what happened. She slapped the guy and told him that next time he would do that not only tears will fell but blood.

From that event I realized that behind her tears lies her strength. I knew that she had realized, even though she was like that she still have a heart that feels.

If she only know how much I liked her. I don't think she was ugly, but instead I think she was beautiful not only inside but outside. I know that this was just the start of a new journey; a journey with less pains and more acceptance. I know that her long wish had come true even before the event, because she found me. I didn't deceive her but instead understand the real her, and helped her find out her strength behind her tears.